note to myself nr.332

kārtējo reizi rakājos vecos krāmos..

2009.gada 2.marts [00:36]
notes to myself:
i don't know why i keep telling myself – don’t give up on him. you’ll see, it will be worth it. he won’t let you down..again.
and if he will, you still will be the winner and he will loose the biggest game of his life.
and you.?! you, will just smile. your deadly, beautiful & crashing smile that will leave him bleeding, because for once in his life he messed with the right and wrong girl at once. for the first and the last time. not even knowing that it isn’t in his strength. he is just an amateur in this game, but she – master, with the lifetime practice. also, he is weak and in some way pathetic with all his dreaming and hopes. his dreams are so childish & naive and totally impossible - he wants: you. but no one can have me. ever.
but after all you will just smile. even with your deep & mysterious look. you will be even more charming than before. you will even wish him good luck, knowing that he is too dumb to use it wisely. and then you will just turn around and walk away. as if nothing would have happened.
and he.?! he, will be too blind to realize.

vnk šis man likās ironiski. neprasiet kāpēc..

skan: secrets in stereo – vanish.